Tuesday, April 27, 2010
my work is cut out for me. what work? gaining your love and trust. all i need is patience and perseverance.
baby i know i've made a mistake. a huge mistake. you've forgive me and still going out with me after what had happened. after i broke your heart into a million pieces. what im trying now is to get the broken pieces back together. i know it wont be easy.
did you notice something? everytime i leave you, i came back to you. the reason is simple. im just not myself without you. im incomplete without you. im nothing without you. even when im joking and laughing, in my heart, im miserable. everytime i leave, you're always there to accept me back. this time round, you didnt cos i know you're scared i might be leaving you again. right now, after learning a hard and terrible lesson, i've become mature. if you accept me back someday i hope, i promise you, with my life, i will make it last. WE will make it last. we're both human. we both make mistakes. mistakes are made so that we can learn from it. i learn it the hard way baby.
im going NS soon. i dont know if my absence may change your feelings towards me. NS period will make or break a relationship. some relationships end because of NS. some grew stronger. i hope what we're having now will grow stronger when im serving the nation. just give me one chance. one more last chance. i promise you i wont waste it.
The Boy Really Loves The Girl.
colouring begins at ; - 1:39 AM.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
alot of things happened since the last post.
i broke up with the Girl. my mistake. i regret whatever i did. i wrote in my previous post that i dont want to lose any of my loved ones. i did lose one. the Girl that i truly love.
i just ended the call with her. i told her that i wont disturb her anymore. the reason behind it is that i want her to move on. i feel like im stopping her from moving on. but its for her own good. i cant believe that im doing this. i cant even stop myself from texting her, thinking about her. but i have to.
im still gonna love her. i hope that some day, she'll return the love. but it wont be that soon. i know that. she's gonna be in my thoughts, my prayers.
i know this is going to be tough. if by not texting her or not meeting her helps her from moving on, i dont mind doing that. all i want is for her to be happy.
hopefully she wont forget about me. the first guy that bought her flowers. hopefully she reads my letter every now and then. i hope for alot of things. the one i want to come true is for her happiness.
baby, i just want you to know that i love you. alot actually. just that sometimes i dont show it. im afraid of losing you. losing a big part of my life.
i better stop here. having the worst chest pain right now. and yet smoking at the same time.
colouring begins at ; - 2:16 AM.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
before i begin, my condolences to Rasul and family.
be strong for yourself and your family.
wouldnt be easy but we're all here for you.
Al-Fateha.
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sorry for not updating. wonder who still read this blog of mine. hahaha!
just a short update.
i miss watevas. the whole bunch.
busy with school, work or the other half.
had a misunderstanding with fidah the other day.
wouldnt want to talk about it.
i cant seem to remember when is the last time we ALL went out together.
had fun, stuffs to catch up.
only impromptu meet-ups for now.
i may not be the BEST friend one can ask but i try my best to be one.
i tried being there for everything, for everyone.
but... ah, i dont know.
miss the Girl too.
i know you're busy with school, im busy with work.
but we'll work it out okay?
sometimes i get too busy with my work and friends until i neglected you.
i apologise.
for not spending time on your special day, i apologise.
i always put myself before you.
i apologise.
i know im not always there when you need me.
i feel bad, its killing me inside.
why the emotional post?
cos im scared of losing every single one of you.
you people are precious to me.
this post sounds like its my last day living.
but you can never predict what's gonna happen.
i love you guys!
thanks for being there when in times of need.
colouring begins at ; - 4:28 AM.
Friday, August 28, 2009
finally, after 2 freaking months, i decided to blog again. yeay? haha!
alot of things happened during the 2 months. good and bad. quitting school which im not really proud of, adapted to working life at sentosa. many things happened but too sleepy to type it all down.
seems like i got alot of things to type. but it was gone before i could.
im going to take a shower now. gonna go work. =[
colouring begins at ; - 8:50 AM.
Monday, June 29, 2009
hi there.
1st of all, i want to say
GOODBYE CWT(ESTEE LAUDER) AND HELLO SENTOSA!!!the past week, i've been working at CWT to do stock-taking. its mentally and physically exhausted. all that counting make me crazy. on the last day, im so crazy, i told my supervisor only crazy people count brochures 1 by 1. really. its crazy.
during one of my working days, someone called from Sentosa, saying i got the retail job. YEAY! how great is that. so look up for me when you're in Sentosa okay.. hahaha
okay lah. enough update. bye!
colouring begins at ; - 12:55 AM.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
from today onwards, i wont ask anyone to hangout. im done with having the initiative asking people to hangout. im dead serious. you guys wanna hang out with me, you know what number to dial. if there's nothing serious happening to me, i wont disturb you guys.
kina, if you told us earlier about your accident, i rather see you than hanging out at west coast park. if you didnt want to tell us because of our reaction, hey, that is natural when you hang out with the boys. we love you. even muhsin loves you although he kinda sucks. and oh, you look 'wonderful' with your 'good' looking teeth. hahaha. i love you and please ride with care.
colouring begins at ; - 2:48 AM.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
i guess everyone had their Mother's Day, celebrating it with joy. well, not everyone. its a different Mother's Day for me. a day which i was hoping that things at home is going to be well, stays the same. i wish Mother's Day would come later when things at home is back to normal. Mothers should not shed any sad tear at any day, particularly Mother's Day but my mum shed the most saddest tears i've ever seen. i couldnt help but to cry. i cant say anything to comfort my mum. no words to make her feel better. just YOUR presence can and will make her feel better. but YOU didnt come. YOU disappoint me, especially Mimi. YOU put YOUR feelings first before hers. HOW COULD YOU? don't YOU miss her? don't YOU love her? YOU didnt make YOUR words to action.
i'm so sorry but i am SO disappointed in YOU.
colouring begins at ; - 12:08 AM.
