Thursday, July 13, 2006
sometimes i wish...i wish tat i didnt grow up...when u r a toddler, u don have to worry abt stuff...like wat others might think... don have to worry abt tomorrow...wats goin to happen next...no worries, no problems...others loves u although u did something bad...being a young adult makes me feel tired...too many things in my mind...many ppl to impress...many2 probs...pressure is always in me...gotta do well in exams...peer pressure...GIRLS!teens stuff...i juz need a break...i seriously do...when i browse pics when i was a baby,i wish i cud remember them...the greatest moments but cant remember...i used to tell myself..."my dad still loves and remembers me"...but now it change...i don think he loves me or remember me anymore...the pics of me n him he put up on the wall of his house...i don think he look at it everyday...he juz walk past and ignore it like a boring poster...i sleep his house sometimes not bcoz of him...its bcoz of my siblings there...i miss them so...whenever i went there, me n my father wont have a proper connversation...its like when he ask, i ans...i ask, he ans...tat kind of thing...whenever we go to shop together, we nvr walk side by side...he wud always walk infront, smoking...while im at the back, smoking too...i knw im old enuff and don nid tat kind attention anymore...but somehow i miss the love from a father...when i see my frens wif their father, laughing...i so miss tat... i miss sleeping on his lap...him carrying me arnd...its sad whenever i think abt it...and its hard for me not to think abt it...
colouring begins at ; - 8:13 PM.
