Monday, December 01, 2008
hello there!
currently im feeling really sick. cough and flu and waiting for asthma to attack. i think its due to the smoke from the burning wood and charcoal.
oh yah, my youngest brother sunat/circumcise on saturday. i headed over to ayah's on friday night. did not do much. met Hazim and Azhari at Hazim's carpark and headed to ayah's. we chilled at the playground nearby from 11+pm till 6.45am. did not sleep a wink. Hazim and i stayed awake while Azhari snores his way to lalaland. hahaha. by 8.30, we were on our way to Eunos, to get my brother's PP to be circumcised. hahaha. my brother was anxious. he didnt cry after getting circumcised. very strong boy. big brother is proud of you.
on our way back to ayah's, ayah told me something that made me felt so down. i cried in the van without anyone knowing. its hard when you know you cant do anything to change the situation.i helped out until everything is settled. felt tired but so what. i didnt want to see my dad tired. he's tired and stressed enough. let your sons do some hard labour for you okay.
to ayah,i know you have problems but i didnt know that its that big and serious. like i said before leaving your house, take care of your health, cut down on cigerettes. if you need any kind of help, financially especially, you can approach any one of your children. although we are not well off, we can contribute whatever we can. even your ex-spouse is willing to help you eventhough you done her wrong. i hate you for that but if you dont know, i LOVE you. never in my life i deny that you're my FATHER.like what Jina said to me before, dont wait until he's not breathing, then i start regretting everything. you are my father and i am your son, no matter what.
I LOVE YOU AYAH.
colouring begins at ; - 12:08 AM.
