i broke up with the Girl. my mistake. i regret whatever i did. i wrote in my previous post that i dont want to lose any of my loved ones. i did lose one. the Girl that i truly love.

i just ended the call with her. i told her that i wont disturb her anymore. the reason behind it is that i want her to move on. i feel like im stopping her from moving on. but its for her own good. i cant believe that im doing this. i cant even stop myself from texting her, thinking about her. but i have to.

im still gonna love her. i hope that some day, she'll return the love. but it wont be that soon. i know that. she's gonna be in my thoughts, my prayers.

i know this is going to be tough. if by not texting her or not meeting her helps her from moving on, i dont mind doing that. all i want is for her to be happy.

hopefully she wont forget about me. the first guy that bought her flowers. hopefully she reads my letter every now and then. i hope for alot of things. the one i want to come true is for her happiness.

baby, i just want you to know that i love you. alot actually. just that sometimes i dont show it. im afraid of losing you. losing a big part of my life.

i better stop here. having the worst chest pain right now. and yet smoking at the same time.

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